DON'T
Oh no, not that kind of "crunch".
So you know sometimes so much stuff is happening but you're not really sure what you should be doing. No? Oh... well I'm going through that right now. I know I have stuff to do, but I still don't know what to do. It's a weird feeling and it's frustrating but I guess that's life.
Right now, I feel like I am at a pivotal time... I want to say my life but its not that deep, just a pivotal time at this period. Shooting for our web series starts soon and then I am soon heading off for America. I think right now pretty much sums up this whole academic year. Excitement, endless work and stress. I'm not going to lie, this years been pretty great. I've produced some good films and met some amazing people. But with people comes personal stress issues, they just come hand in hand.
To be honest with you I haven't experienced too much personal stress. Well I say that, I guess I experienced a lot at one moment in time. and it just made me think how crazy emotions and feelings are. I guess I'm kind of going off on a tangent but oh well. I mean you can feel a certain way, you know you don't want to feel like that but you just can't help it. Something inside you just overcomes you and makes you feel that way. It's a really frustrating situation to be in. If at the beginning of the year you told me I would have to deal with this I would have laughed in your face.
It's important to remember that all feelings pass. No matter how bad it feels now it will pass, and the people that are making you feel this way aren't even worth it. No one deserves to feel that way and nobody has the right to make you feel that way. Seriously, why does this person have so much power over your happiness. I do get it, I get that we get these feelings normally about people we care about. But how much can this person really care about you?
I used to be such a blank slate when it came to feelings. Never showed anything, but now I've realised that that got me into a lot of sticky situations. Don't get me wrong, expressing your feelings also can but at least you're not hiding anything and everything is out on the table. Am I making any sense here? I don't know. But when I say "crunch time" I'm really alluding to my transition into emotional maturity haha... well that's what I'd like to think so.
I don't think any of that really means anything to you, well it might, I hope it did.
I have recently decided to completely remove jeans from my wardrobe. Why? That's an interesting question, but the real question is "Why haven't I done this already?". Jeans are just the go to lower half of body wear. But really why? I think we've all been heavily deluded.
For starters, this ones more for guys. The damn things are so tight. I mean skinny jeans are like the thing now. If we see someone with like bootcut we'd question if they were from this decade. But anyway they don't leave much to the imagination. The first struggle is getting the damn things on, And jeans are not a very nice material. Well if you're cheap like me and get them from Primark. The friction caused as you tire yourself trying to pull them above your knee. And then you've got a whole half a leg to go. And that part of the leg is fatter than the other half.
You finally get them on thinking the struggle is over but then you realise that they're not even comfortable. At least the pain you went through to get them on is temporary but that uncomfortable-ness you're feeling now is going to last as long as you wear them for. So now you have two choices. You're already in the damn things and getting them on was more trouble than its worth. So you can either take them off and go through all that pain in reverse. Or just live with the fabric riding up into your crotch.
Let's move on. As if jeans weren't already asking a lot of you, they just couldn't stop there,. They're now asking you to wear something extra to secure them in place. It's just attention seeking if you ask me. I mean you can get jeans that don't require belts but for me anyway the majority of mine need them. So on top of paying top dollar for these jeans (they are expensive) you're now required to fork out even more for a piece string. TROLLED.
And that's just the start. Getting belts on are a hassle. You're literally jumping through hoops for it. Then you get to the end and realise that the belt has twisted and is now the wrong way so now have to waste more time twisting it back to the right way. And some belts don't even do their job properly. I don't know if this is just a "me" thing but the buttons always seem to fall below the belt. if that makes sense. So I have to constantly put it back into place so people don't think I'm about to expose myself all the time.
I've just realised that jeans are just not worth it. And they all look the bloody same. No ones going to compliment you on your jeans. OH ACTUALLY I JUST REMEMBERED. WHY ARE TORN JEANS BECOMING A THING? I am fearful that I will fall into the trap and look like I went 10 rounds with that bear from The Revenant. I don't get it now, nor do I want to get it. Torn jeans are a big no. I wear trousers so people can not see my legs. This kinda defeats the purpose. And it's all becoming a bit ridiculous now. At least make it look like the tears are there intentionally.
I mean I only wear jeans out. Every time I get home I always have to change so this day was pretty much pending. Track pants FTW.
Having said all this, jeans are the only piece of clothing that you can wear multiple times without washing. No? Is that just me?
